In two days it will be a year since I heard those words on the phone and saw our sweet baby's face for the first time! I cannot believe a year has passed since that day...the wait had become almost unbearable for me last year at this time. Truthfully, I was sad and anxious, questioning why all the time and wondering if this road we had taken was not meant to be...I had lost faith in alot of things, the process, the timing, the promises and then on friday, March 5th at 11:11 am (how cool is that?) my phone rang and it was the reassuring voice of our social worker. I was convinced that she was calling just to "check in" as she would say so that when she finally said those words to me that I had waited so long to hear I am pretty sure I said, "D, are you kidding me?" and I might have cursed as well....I told you I was losing it!! She reassured me that she was not joking and that we she had our referral, a little girl and she was healthy and oh yeah, pretty cute too.:)
The rest of the conversation is kind of a blur, I remember running downstairs to tell Steve and then running down another flight of stairs to open the email from our agency that would contain the most precious gift of all, a picture of Nora Eun-seo...When her picture popped up my heart just wanted to burst, I felt a tremendous weight lifted off my shoulders, an amazing feeling of gratitude swept over me, I felt calm and at peace and knew that I was looking at the face of my DAUGHTER...the face I had waited almost two years to see was in front of me, perfect and beautiful and she felt like she was meant to be ours. Gratitude is an amazing feeling when it is felt from the deepest part of your soul and the moment I saw her face I felt grateful to her birth mother for making the choice to give this precious child life, for enduring the pain and sadness of having to let her go, for allowing me the priviledge of being her mother, for having so much faith in the promise of her future that she would love her enough to be brought into our lives and our hearts...I believe at that moment is when I felt as close as I will ever feel to Nora's birth mom...thank you for giving us the greatest gift of becoming parents for the fourth time...we are forever grateful.
Nora...your curiousity and determination is one of a kind...you have brought a new light into our lives that burns brightly and shines with the promise of an amazing life!
Happy Referral Day...
K
Seoul Time
